Into Infinity ...

Walking away from everything you believed
Packing the leftover, that they have spared
One last walk through this house of pain
Remember the taste of the last kiss we shared

Speeding car
Chasing winds
Escaping reality
Adrenaline begins

Nothing behind, but the storm to follow me
Of a change I feel that I cannot contemplate
Breaking chains, red skies burn ahead of me
And this pain within, that I still cannot sedate

Crashed and burnt
Roads a dead end
A new beginning
Awake among dead

Transition into a parallel world of a paradox
A sense of a new beginning, a strange déjà vu
Walking lost, confused, a lonely light above me
A strange voice "Patience, It will come to you"

How many deaths?
To feel this free
How many lives
To reach Eternity …

Whatever we have known throughout this life
It's just a reverie, a mirage to be very precise
Reincarnation or rebirth, whatever we may see
It's nothing more than a transition into infinity …

Declaration ...

I still cannot evoke
When this end begins
I still cannot deem
What caused this sin?

Grazing these wounds
To confirm this isolation
Burn this gift of importance
Need a lie for this innocence

I deny this existence
But still I fail to accept
And taste this reminiscence
Of the life I had wept

Don't trust for what they declare
Savor what you see and now feel
Things may seem useless now
Everything may seem unreal

Do you still remember when?
Everything seemed so eternal
Magic that is in the frozen time
When everything was so real


But tomorrow might be different
I don't believe, maybe you do too
Isn't this how it has always been
To doubt you believed was true?

Her Tomb of Despair ...

Freezing pale breezes indicates
The advent of the forlorn winters
Through the bloodstained forest floor
And Across the lake of dead souls
Bayonet carcasses lay rest Scattered
A realm Where No Life Shall reside,
A sphere where nothing shall ever exist
A place where spirits lost and destiny ends
She rises from the abyss of her loneliness
A coven of the dead is what she rules
The princess of the obscure lonely forest
At dusk she moves through the woods
Gleamed by the forlorn distant moon
The essence of her vindictive Melancholy
Spread upon the dark land like a gloomy mist
Waiting to entrap a soul to kill her isolation
But no matter how many souls she seizes
She remain alone all through the dark winters
A curse she live for many a dark centuries
Endless circle is her kingdom of Darkness
Where she will reign for an eternity of pain
Covered in snow is now her hope to be free
Her sadistic castle is now her tomb of despair

Self Pacification …

Behind Any doubts,
All bewilderments even gathered as one.
From the time it all began,
To the time it all ends up here
I wait for the answers,
The answers of my very own existence.
With everything so mixed up
And mysteriously bonded together.
So different may it seem,
But sums up to be somehow the same.
Without doubt I believe,
Everything that happened was for a reason.
I may live restless all my life
Without knowing the answers,
But, I will surely wait for it to come to me.



As alive as you feel,
But hollow inside that you maybe.
You come to me like a riddle,
So obscure to elucidate.
Still so simple to describe,
I don’t know what binds us together
”The body or the Soul”.
But everything that has been
Is a big question mark to me,
so this just adds up and making it’s way
on to becoming the sum of all mysteries.
Like always,
I was amazed by how
My feelings didn’t seem to be mine.
I never even wanted to acknowledge those feelings.
Flying in a blue dream, trying my best
Not to show up on the outside world.
This is how you feel too,
I know it, you don’t have to explain.
I knew it all when we first met.


This had to be the time
when it all came down crashing on me
I never knew something like this
would come my way,
But I knew deep inside somewhere
in the back of my mind insane.
I don't expected anything from this life,
but it sure has a way
to play with me every time.
Every time it gave me hope
when I drop my expectations.
It makes me feel wanted
when every time I wanted to be alone.
Every time it made me feel strong
when I didn’t needed to be fragile .
To break away for someone or something
Every time it gave me hope,
when ever I stopped dreaming of a better day.



After giving me all of these feelings and emotions,
somehow it bribed me to dream of a better day.
Falling in life as we know.
I made myself expect and felt wanted.
It made me strong all the time,
and it made me dream
But this was not the end of it.
It made me fall after it gave me wings to fly .
After giving me all the hopes and expectation,
it made me flying in the amethyst dream .
And when I was sky high
it just burned the wings that I flew on .
Fallen is what it is now.
And I am still falling,
but this journey won’t end ,
it makes me think of it all the time.
Of how much more time till I hit the ground.



Tonight I contemplate
The destruction of at least one entire race.
The winds howl like disembodied spirits,
How unlike the soul I think I am.
But that is the question.
Isn't it? Who I am really.
The pain and misery of the loved ones
Have given me a reflection of an ancient horror.
Lost somewhere among these two feelings,
I worked outside the boundaries of my normal conscience.
Once Again I was struck
By how my feelings did not seem to belong to me.
Certainly I didn't even wanted to acknowledge those feelings.
The prospect of destruction brought me no pleasure.
The dreams that are only subconscious frustrations.
The nightmares that would never end.
I feel powerless to contain what is happening inside me,
And I wonder, if I am possessed.
I really think if I am Insane, or am I normal.
Normal doesn't exist. It’s just a term used by stiff people.
Just a minor thought, how odd?
Such a tiny mind could create such a harsh and tragic end.
But nothing so far that happened was logical.

Spirit of the Forest ...

The ending of another day
Yet again walking down a path ages old
A Night bird plays its song
This winter eve, seem so dark, so cold

The enchanting of the full moon
With the shifting of clouds is revealed
Painting the valley with its light
Uncovering the land, forest and field

The dreadful tone of this night
Embraced by this shriek silence I slide
Wandering the misty forest floor
I see an endless landscape by my side

Walking through the bushes
And in dark I see a maiden with a light
Under the shade of the oak
Singing in this freezing obscure night

I stood and watched her dance
And then I start to walk close to the tree
To observe the beauty that I see
But the gloom of the night trembles me

As a fading light she disappears
My heart left with sorrow as the mist glide
I turn towards the same old path
Nostalgia of her smile as she fades to hide

Clouds cover the moon once again
The Air is filled with the tragedy if this night
As long as I live, I will come again
To see a smile of this fae dancing with a light

Since I fell in love with You ...

Sine the time I have fell in love with you
Oh how I am falling into this bottomless pit
Al I need is to be me in your arms right now
Oh baby I am lost in you, you hold me so tight

Since the time I have been loving you
Days have never seen dusk since it's been you
You are the one that had healed my heart and soul
Now this wounded heart within me bleeds no more
The screams are still there and that is my only fear
Don't worry! It's just the crashing of hollow years

Since the first day I felt your love that you place within
Still anything is everything when you have nothing
But you have everything I thought I would've had
Something in my darkest hours which makes me glad
I have lived a thousand years in just so little time
And the world seems worthless when I see you are mine

Since the time I have fell in love with you
Life now is beautiful and everything is new
All the dreams I ever had seem to be true
Oh baby!!! Since I have been loving you

Till Eternity ...

Yet once again in the silence of my realm
Solitude within me is all I have known
Yet once again sitting in front of my computer
Trying to see what it never has really shown
Looking at all these pages written by myself
I look and try to analyze all that I have seen
Trying to re-live all those forgotten memories
Trying to go back to all the places I have been

Yet this one will come to an end as well
Just like how everything has ever been
A perpetual burn is what I have always felt
Every day death of me is all I have seen

But it's alright
And it's ok now
For it doesn't really matter anymore
I am fine now with everything now
I realize I just think too much
And try to analyze the manner
The way everything works
It's my self brought miseries

Cause maybe I don't have what I need
But I am lucky to get everything I want
There is no reason to cry for me anymore
For it's just life and everything in it

Just my companion right now is a cigarette
Burning away and these ashes just remain
Just like how my life has been throughout
A mind full of thoughts labeled as insane
Burning away, all that my life is, just smoke
All that is left behind is ashes falling down
A drag is always there for everyone close to me
I feel numb, no more pain, just my silent mourn

I have left everything behind that I had
All the ones that loved me or I loved
All the people who cared for me
All the ones that I cared for
But I am still here
And I'll always be
Forever and ever
Till Eternity …

Jalthay Khwaab ...

Is zidagi ka ruk janay kab mur gaya
Har khayal jo socha waqth kay saath badal gaya
Kaha sab nay waqth naheen yeh sahee
Par har kisee ka andaz hamaree taraf badal gaya

Dekha hai hum nay har chehra palat thay huay
nazar jo kabhee thee hamaray saath
Har dost har hamsafar har chahanay wala
Jab murk kay dekha toe naheen tha koee saath

Ab naheen desaktha in sawalon ka jawab
Naheen Tootain gay jo dekhay thay hum nay khwaab
Har bebasee ko jala do har mayoosee ko mita do
Aur bhool jao jo layeh thay apnay par azzab

Begining of the End ...

I have called upon the nightmares of the past
Because i cannot live with the contentment of today
It's not that I don't want to feel serene again
I feel someone else would be better with it anyway

Maybe someone else desires it more than I do
As my grieving void existence don't matter to me anymore
Now I have lost my will to live and to survive
As I have been drowning, and I cannot see the shore

I have lived too long with this suffering I feel
Without it I don't know where I have been or who I am
Without this ache and this thought of seclusion
Life would be just an infinite voyage which has no end

I made myself used to the sensation that burns me
The feel that all is lost and nothing to seek out for behind
To search for the finale is what I seek in this world
The thought of demise is what's going through this mind


To End this verve
And never to begin
My freedom from pain
What you call a Sin …

Forgotten Serenity …

It's not the first time that I see
What I hold deep within me
It's not the first time you said
That I am just so hard to get

It's not the first time that we feel
This truth of you and me so real
It's not the first time that we hold
Our love now just seems frozen cold

I have failed to accumulate my Fading destiny
It's Just a search now for our Forgotten Serenity

A hope lost now That we never may find
We Lost it somewhere within our mind
You said that I am the one to be blamed
All I give you is what you leave behind

All the beautiful memories of yester years
They now flow in the sour stream of tears
This may end too as everything always did
I am where I always was, fighting my fears

You have failed to wipe out all of my misery
It's now a bleak thought of my Forgotten Serenity

Walking away to a higher ground
Leaving behind the sights and sound
Of what was between you and me
My forever search for our

Forgotten Serenity …

Killing myself for your Love ...

I have lost you today in this truth
I have lost all that I ever had in you
My heart: that will always bleed
My soul: will always scream for you

For you will be my every single breath
And for you I will long forever
I will watch the path that took you away
But I will wait for you here

Knowing that you will never return
To this house of my pain
Knowing that there will be no one else
For you and for me again

But no matter what it maybe
I will hold you forever close to me
So close that no one will ever be
And live a dream, for you and me
For the moment that will set me free
For a love that will never be
For a wish forever in misery
I know no one will ever agree
But this is what will set me free
Loving you was my destiny
But acceptance will never be

For I will
Live and die each day in you memory …

Darksoul.Inc

A word Form the ones below the heavens
To the ones who forgot as they stand high
From the one who stand above this hell
And look towards the burning lifeless sky

You cross the line of my patience and rage
Time to ventilate and so I open this cage
To liberate this beast that I hold within
Annihilate my wisdom, to burn this page

Where it once read to forgive and to forget
But where do I hide this decaying regret
You think that I am defeated in this battle
On Guard, for I still have this option left

You took away my heroes, all my pride
You have gone too far, crossed the line
You say that I'm insane and I am a rebel
It's just that I am not one of your kind

You are guilty of being led by your greed
Betrayal simply is what you leave behind
Your words are a two rimmed jagged blade
The consequence, dreadful fugitive minds

Too Afraid to fight for you own cause
You choose a fool and put him in control
To kill his mind, what ever he stood for
You dictate your plans and steal his soul

You say that I am a rebel and a disease
You just shit out whatever you please
Fuck your thoughts, your judging mind
My true face will leave you on your knees

I will take away everything that you loved
Destroy all your hopes, and your games
For this lost cause, I will fight till my death
A Darksoul I am now, burning in this flame


I am not what you call the dead
Not what you refer to as alive
Not the darkness that you search
Not your wish you search for light

Celestial Melancholy ...

Counting moments of this night alone
I hear nightingales pass by my window
A screaming Silence in this empty room
All I see is my only companion, my shadow
The voice I await is no where to be found
Searching the hours through the night
Blank faces all across in my mind I see
I have lost now, not anymore I can fight
Now it's ok if you don't even understand
Understand the feeling that I have inside
It's alright if you cannot see the visions
The visions that haunt me day and night
I try to contemplate the short-lived notion
Trying to separate this night and that day
A wishful thinking, hoping you could see
See what lies between the night and day
Never to be explained, something explicable
Yet as simple as it seems, this mind insane
Burning eyes, all I see is this growing smoke
And all that I can feel is this perpetual pain
I wish you were broken as I am now in pieces
Not to feel the pain, but to understand this me
Feel what the Joy is after the extreme of misery
The beauty that lies in this celestial melancholy

Destiny of our Love ...

I welcome you to this fade my love
Oh how I waited you all these years
Look what is left of me now today
I always am drowning in these tears

I welcome you again to this house
Of pain and miseries in your absence
But in the corners you might still find
All of our love, can you still sense?

Don't wine for what happened to you
Just forget all the blood stained memories
Everything that has happened to you
Was just cause, so you could be a part of me


All those lonely winter nights waiting
I waited for you through the freezing cold
All the sun burnt scorching summer days
I waited all these years just so I can hold

To wipe your tears and say that I am here
You are the most beautiful thing that I ever had
I knew it deep within me that you will return
And with your presence I'm alive and, I'm glad

Now I will dig a grave within me
Will bury what is left of you now
And with patience I shall wait
It's hard, but will wait somehow

Through these freezing winter nights I will go
Once again waiting for my love to grow
But I know my faith in you was always there
And with the first stem of life, it will show

That my tears were not a waste
That you and I were meant to be
My bleeding heart will not matter
For this is what we were born for

Our destiny …

My Dead World Within ...

Born with innocence
A child is free to dream
Learned to be a human
So obvious it may seem
What mistake to be here?
No more can I take this fear

The presence of life fades here today
All expectation lost, they are to betray
A wretched fate now dooms to rotten away
With lost vision, you are in mental decay

Nothing more from this world I perceive
To live in hope is what I call to deceive
A chaotic end, being in faith you receive
In the lies of heaven, no more I believe

The life I left behind, a morbid Infestation
No more can I live this ritualistic suffocation
Adhere to your norms, a hysteric Conjuration
The life subsist, a malevolent humiliation

Where I walk, this path I will always pace
I will never be a freak to this human race
A mask of disgust to cover your true face
I stand beyond, cannot live your disgrace

I walk away today, for I shall never return
But I welcome you to this perpetual burn
In my words is the light I know you seek
Living with the world you have become weak


Tired being a disciple and not leader in war
Think of what you can be and what you are
Bow down to my words and let this begin
For I will free your soul, salvation from sin

Khwaab ya Haqeeqat ?

Hai ya khwaab ya koee haqeeqat hai yeh.
Zindagee har lamha dhal rahee hai jaisay.
Janay kis nazar ka intezaar hai mujhay
Kyoon har waqth in khayalon main ghum hoon main

Ghoorain yeh lamha, raat kay is pal main
Bebasee hai in hawaaon main har taraf
Chand bhee dhal chukka hai is andhairay main
Sirf ek awaaz goonj rahee hai har taraf


Thak chukka hoon
Mit chukka hoon
Jayen ham kahan

Andhera hai yehaan …….
Tanha hoon main
Adhera hai yehan
Tanha hai tu bhee

Ek ehsaas jaisay zindagee ka naheen koee makaan
Naa hai koee chut naa hai koee deewaar
Ho gaya hai jaisay har koee awazaar
Janay kyooon ghum ho chukka hai har insaan.

Ab jaisay kay waqt qareeb aah chukka hai
Jaisay andhaira barh gaya aur saya mit raha hai
Ab shayad yeh zindagee kay safar ka ikhtehtham hain.
Ya phir shay hai yeh ek nayee zindagee ka aaghaaz

Thak chukka hoon
Mit chukka hoon
Jayen ham kahan

Andhera hai yehaan …….
Tanha hoon main
Adhera hai yehan
Tanha hai tu bhee

Would You?

I've been broken here for so long
Have been waiting, and all alone
Wouldn’t you come and hold me now
Or would you miss me when I’m gone

I've been bleeding from my soul
Trying to hide this hurt I hold
Trying to just live it while I can
For your love till ever more

All the times that we shared apart
And this pain just tears my heart
Do you have a heart of stone?
Or would you love me when I'm far

Have you ever felt me close?
As I felt you in my body and soul?
Have I ever found my way into your
Into your ever changing world?

I've been broken here for so long
Have been waiting and all alone
Wouldn’t you come and hold me now
Or would you love me when I’m gone
Would you?

Resurrection into Darkness ...

Resurrection into this brutal Darkness
Where this light seems to no longer prevail
Suspended images flashing through my eyes
A Past nightmare, which was a reality yesterday

All the dreams and future wishes
Mean nothing, are now put aside
All my loved ones, all my heroes
Are now dead, as I am dead inside

The Place where I believe I have to be
The sight seems so close, yet so far away
Walking down this corridors of darkness
I have the strength, but also a feeling dismay

In my dreams the thoughts come alive
To give this agonizing memory an Identity
The ability to connect the sound with sight
The screaming silence of my fragile destiny

I close my eyes and try not to seek
The images of my dreams, this wrecked me
The solitude in this perpetual darkness
Will never fade this time, will always be …

Mask of deception …

This mask that you wear each day
I analyze this manner mold to see beneath
Trying to cover up your true intentions
You live in a lie, your very own self-deceit

Life has always been a cruel labyrinth of obstacles
To enter this place and you shall never leave
You fight with the demons of your very existence
And in the end there is nothing that you perceive

The being that you do not demonstrate to the world
Is a wretched thought of disgust to me
Ravenous motives are breeding within you
You live and die each day just to be free

Freedom is not what you are worth of
For this disgrace you put upon yourself
Wearing a mask of this filth and disgust
Pleasing yourself in the anguish of someone else

A Useless Hope …

Better my dreams of unconscious,
Than the nightmares of awake.
I don't want to wake up and kill my useless hope,
I don't like to have this reality altered,
I have too much on my mind for a simpleton,
After what I known as discomfort, settled down,
I felt strangely free.
Able to see my desolate world from a new angle
Like finding a portal to the Arks of heaven
Maybe I am becoming more into a star,
Maybe I will always shine as a star,
In my own lonely universe,
A falling star that is destined to burn up the skies,
What if I burn away?
But I am happy to know
that at least the fire will keep you warm
in those dark, cold and lonely nights"...

Serene ...

I fly around the world of affection
With the flow of whispering winds
I want to travel years and years
Across the universe with the stars
And bring to you all the radiant dreams
The dreams of you that I have I lived

I want to run just like the river to the sea,
As The lightning to the storm
nd I'd be beyond the silent night,
Away from the dark and into the light
I would discover the life that we never knew
That is in between the clouds above us

I would sleep in the shades of your beliefs
In that placid rest, my world of serenity
I will be a spectrum of life for the lifeless
beyond the world that I’ve know
The space and as the soul I would exist

I walk towards the sea with all my feelings
With every step I get lost into a chimera of fidgety
I try not to think of it all
Try to keep my tomorrow into darkness
But I cannot stop the light
Reaching the depths of my insanity

Help me by being by my side my Seraph
To make me feel complete every time
Shining my dark world and softening my pain
Healing my hurts and destroying my past again
Wiping all of my tears and forgetting what is gone.

I know now that you know the road to heaven
Let me follow your foot prints to feel alive again
I know we will be all that we ever dreamed off
Holding our hands and walking
Into the sunset of our dreams

For your voice brings me back to life
Your touch that will make me feel alive
I await for the time this life will end
And maybe someday you will feel it too
And this is the way, I’ll look towards
My future thinking about you …

The Past Nightmares...

The past nightmares, they are growing
Step by step they just change this place
Into a Valley of silence cover with mist
Mist of miseries that are put upon
To the dreams that I believed were true

But now that I look back form this place
everything seem to have changed since then
Into the darkness that is shed upon my lifeless home
So much has changed since then

Every face that i once thought to be beautiful
Has now taken a new shape of terror
Is it reflected through the mirror of some else?
Now the time just seems to elongate everyday
Stretching these days into my sleepless nights

Do I need to run away form this new change?
Or should I surrender myself to my own disgrace?
Why would you care about why I am stranded still?
Why would you look down and see this broken me?

Blood all over my body, I still know it's a dream
But now that I look back form this place
everything seem to have changed since then
Even though I try to realize that it's not reality
But so much has changed since then

My wishful dreams changed into nightmares
The Past Nightmares...

“Destination Nowhere” …

Helpless
A thought with no control
Restless
A soul striding on its own
A bodyDead as this world inside of me
Destination
A place nowhere that I can be

No where to be seen

Living this lie of a useless hope
Breathing this air of self-deceit
On the brinks of this endless conclusion
Stranded at the cross roads of my belief
Fake beliefs
All the things that you see and feel are never really there
Leading you towards “Destination nowhere” …

Insanity
At the edge of this mind
Pleading
A wish that never one can find
Falling
Into the depths of Infinity
Subsiding
A star burning for eternity

Conceiving uncertainty

cruising dark roads with headlights off
blinded by glare in your face
moving too fast but the wrong way around
its fate that you’d lose this race

Yes, u're losing the race

Walking down this road of no life
Swimming in the sea of shame
Fighting this endless battle of life
Now it’s time you must lose this game

You are losing the game

All the things that you see and feel are never really there
Leading you towards “Destination nowhere” …

Once a Blessed ...

How can someone survive all that I went through?
Will I go through this more, as long as I can take?
As long as your confines bound your love for me?
How will I break if I cannot survive your ordeals no more?

Starring through the windows of my dying soul
I was alone always, but never so wrecked before
I moaned and broke down and I cried with these tears
But now I live in the hell that you embellish for me

Always stranded where you leave me alone
Waiting for the time you will come to pick me again
I have lost everything in you, and now it seems
It seems the time is about to come when I’ll lose you

Living a thousand dreams in just a moment
Never knowing that you’ll ever break free
Lost you somewhere, in this world of reality
Will I ever seem to discover you again in future?

Gave away everything in your palms that I ever had
Never knowing how it will be without myself in me
Now I stand here alone waiting for the end, for you
For you have all the powers to take me back home

Hold my hands, show me the world we know
Or you will see once a blessed, now a dark soul
Take me to our world of dreams far away
Where there’s no hurt, where pain is away

The False Prophet ...

You feed them with your lethal drug
Paralyzing their power of imagination
Now all they do is judge and condemn
A corrupt leader to a rotting deceased nation

Do you hear what I hear?
Do you feel what I now feel?
Do you hear these screams of terror?
Do you even believe this is for Real?


You think you know the hidden truth
You preach me how I am supposed to be
When you don’t even know what lacks in you
You are nothing more than a filthy hypocrite to me

Do you hear what I hear?
Do you feel what I now feel?
Do you hear these screams of terror?
Do you even believe this is for Real?

You see just yourself and no one else
Your every speech enclosed with mockery
The false prophet for the fools you may find
The fools who are buried in their own misery ….

Why the sun shines again?

Why the sun shines again?
When in the dark,
no one is there to see what i go through
The pain that i hid for years
I am scarred, I think that it finally will be revealed
This light every time it falls on me
Shows to me my wounds have been bleeding for long
The scar on my souls are visible for others too see
Why do I have to bare it everyday
Why do i have to see the night fall everyday
Every day it leave me with new hopes
It leaves me to this thought of dependency
Brings alive the expectations that have long died
Died in the corners of my deepest and darkest thoughts

Why does the night fall?
Even when i don't want it to ever end
Why do i have to walk below this light everyday
Why cannot i live in a place,
where it doesn't reminds me of the days I survived
Why does this rising shines brightens up a new hope
A new hope and new dawn in my cold existence
Why does it has to show me what i have to change
Why does it always show me what i did back then was wrong

Why does the night has to end?
I think and I strongly believe
The cold and dark winter night are just for me
And for some others who have gone through times of suffering,
Something i call my very own
they hide away all the scars that i place inside my skin
All the scars that are marked on my soul since forever
Been through the place, which i walked to get here
Why does it always makes me strong
when i know that I cannot hide anywhere in the light
The winter night glooms are what i call my own.
But then again there is nothing i can call my own...

Realms of my Dreams ...

A voyage as I stride
It’s something that I heard before
Like whispers in my ears
Fading as I drown in my own fears
A destination never to be seen
It's like following shadows of a dream

Another moment of judgment
Yet another decision to make
Is this it? Is this the time
Never thought it would be so soon
The moment of truth as it comes to me
Like I am following shadows of a dream

It felt so cold so broken , so empty
When it all began, and reached it demise
I had a dream , a Nightmare to be precise
Never thought it would be so soon
As I cried lonely under the fading light of the moon
I thought I had a dream . I had a destiny.

I never really possessed anything ……

Forever and Always and for more ...

Always and forever
Each moment spent with you
It's just like a dream to me
That somehow came true

Every day lend me your own special way
Melt all my heart away with a smile
Take time to tell me You really care
And we'll share tomorrow together

There'll always be sunshine
when I look at you
Something I just can't explain
It's the things that you do

If you get lonely
Call me and take
A second to give to me
The magic you make

And I hope tomorrow
Will still be the same
Cause we got a life of love
that won't ever change

I'll always Love You Forever
Together
Forever
I'll always Love you...Forever
And always and for more …

Still Part (II)

And I still stand here alone on this road
Hoping it would take me back in time somehow
Where I once held you close, so close to my heart

I start to walk, with the wind steering me through
Walking across what once was a realm of my thought
Is now only a place, burnt and broken down into pieces

I try to search for a frozen moment
in time that once resided
Trying to relive it all again,
the past that was beautiful, so beautiful
I try to reach out to touch your hand,
but I realize I can feel you no more

Where do I go now,
from this place where you and me together built?
Where would the winds lead me now,
as I don’t have the strength to walk anymore
Cold, broken, empty,
and shattered is what is left of me
without you standing here alone..

A Creature Undone ...

Walking down this path of cold dark life
Every step, every stride hurts deep inside
I never chose to be the man I have become
So incomplete from inside, A Creature so undone

So undone that I cannot contain what I crave
I can’t stand for what I think and believe is mine
Just linger on the words of others to take me through
Through to this journey of misery and this helpless mind

I have had people who loved me for what I was
I had times that I lived without a reason without a cause
But they seemed to be fading with time
And now I am left with no one I can call mine

There was a time when I was strong
Could stand against all the rights and wrong
But now I have been burned too much to stroll again
I try every time, but I just cannot bare this wound, this pain

The Wanderer …

There is a place upon the misty hills
Trying to reach the crest while I still can
This light seems to be fading with moments
Loosing conviction with every notion of this conclusion

The abode I see above is the place where I want to be
A place where there is no one else, just you and just me
I struggle everyday to make myself believe
That I would survive this path, this long and tiring journey


I was hopeless all this time, while I was alone
No one to hold dear, never needed anyone to be where I am
The thoughts of loneliness is all I had within myself
No emotion that I could feel, nothing that I could ever plan


But now that you’re finally here in my life
Will you be my side to tell me wrong from right?
Will you be there in my every struggle my every fight?
Will you hold me close when I am all alone in those cold,
dark and lonely nights?

Aaj Phir Ek Naya Safar ...

Aaj ek naya Safar,
Aaj ek nayi manzil ki talash main nikal para hoon main,
Aaj ek nayi umeed kay saath, kay,
Aaj Jo hai waisa kal naheen hoga,
Aaj ka gham aaj kay liyeh kafi hai,
Aaj ka yeh lamha,
Apnay kal ki anay wali khushon ko naheen mita sakayga,
Is umeed kay sath kay har raat ki ek subha zaroor hai?

Har ek katra in ansoon ka umeed karth hai,
Kay unkay behnay ke waja sirif yeh azab naheen rahaingay,
Balkay kaheen is zindagi kay Kisi mor par,
Ek khushi bhi intezar kar rahi hogi,
Jaisay yeh khushian hamesha naheen rehtheen,
Isi tarhan yeh gham bhi ek din naa rahaingay
Ya phir shayad main Na rahoonga

Yeh Khushi aur Gham ki ankh macholi toe lagi rahaygi,
Jab tak yeh sansain chalthi hain,
Lekin yeh zindagi ka khail khailnay wala main akayla toe naheen,
Aur bhi toe hain jo is zindagi ko jeethay hain,

Chahay jis haal main bhi hon …
Lekin har Dard bhari cheek ki wadion main say,
Ek khushi ki muskurahat apna rastha bana hi lethi hai,
Isi tarhan main bhi is mushkilon bhari zindagi main say,
Chandh khushion kay pal samaitna chahatha hoon,

Aaj phir say chala hoon ek naye zindagi ki talash main,
Ek naye Safar, ek nayi manzil ki taraf
Yeh sochthay huay kay shayad yehi hai meri zindagi ka maqsad,
Shayad Jo kuch bhi hua, Woh is liyeh kay mujhay yehan pohunchna tha,
Jahan aaj main khara hoon,

Lekin phir ek sawaal samnay aakhara hotha hai,
Kay, kiya yehi thaa jo mera intezar kar raha thaa?
Agar naheen toe main phir chal paroonga ek nayi rah par,
Ek nayi manzil ki talash main, ek nayi khushi ko dhoondhnay,
Kyoon kay yeh sansain abh bhi chaltha hain,
Aur yeh zehan ab bhi sochtha hai, farq sirif itna hai,
Yeh rooh ab bejaan hochuki hai,
Lekin main phir bhi zinda hoon
EK Zinda Laash ….

The light of glow ...

Together we make it so good and so true
I don't know what I will do without you
I get scared when thinking of you gone
As I would loose, all faith and hope with you
I don't know what the future holds for us
And how worse it can get for me and for you
But if there is anything that I should know
Then Would you let yourself share it with me
So I can come out of the darkness and into the light

"The light of glow"

For you .. For me ...

Lost in words of my thoughts
Wrecked souls you and me
Stirring on for so long
So elongated as far as I can go
As far as you can be
Drifting through the passage
Finding portals in dissimilar worlds
Entering new existence every time
But never fairly certain
On where we were suppose to go
Always distrustful
On the place where we be
Never knowing where we might go

For us
Who’ve been waiting for so long
For an essence
That’ve been waiting
For a Light
Searching for a soul
Which we can call our own

The world around
But we never found a reason
To give this life a meaning
Never found a touch that would be alive
No we never found the love
That could carry us to completion

But I am here,
and so are You
For this can be so pure
Can be so very true

Awaiting ...

I'll wait
For your love,
but don’t tell me that there will never be a time
for you and for me …

I plead
Please don’t take this love away from me,
the love that you have inside of you.
No way


You can stop me now As fine as you are,
but don’t you see that this is just
too much for me to take,
after all these years living alone
and now I put all my trust in you,
In you who I will love all my life.

Your eyes starring at me,
I can never be free.

You can't imagine
What your image means to me
The pages come alive,
when I write about you,
my dreams come to life when I dream of you,
My mind comes to a rest when I think of you,
when you are sharing your love …

I am waiting for you here …

Can I be ?

the hurt in your eyes
At times just seem to stab my heart
And I realize that your pain is just too much
I don't know how you can bare this all alone
You are the strong one, who has stood all this time
All this time by yourself, just trying to live it
As I have been living, just making my stay
But when I come to you I feel like sharing my hurt
As I know you are the only one who can take this all away
Can I be the one who would kiss those tears away?
Can I be the one who can share the hurt that you place inside?

Do You?

Every time I think, and wonder if all I do is worth?
Every word that comes from within me is any worth to you?
Every feeling and emotion do you feel the same way?
Every time I say all of the things I feel,
And I wonder if all of these feelings go to waste.

How can I be so true to myself or you?
How can I give away all my deepest thoughts to you?
And the only thoughts that has helped me to be strong
How can i be so week when I come to you, or am I wrong?

How can I mean every word that I say?
How can I be so true to me or you?
But do you feel the same way as I do?
Do I know everything that I need to know about you?
Do you mean every single word that you say, is it true?

Can I ?

Can I try every time to get to you when you are gone?
Can I try getting to you when you just want to be alone?
Can I say I am not going anywhere when you say you need sometime?
Can I say that you don’t need to be alone?
because you’re the only one I call mine

Can I tell you to make me understand?
But why can’t you see I’m lost in confusion
On the thoughts of how or where we’ll be

I just want you to tell me again and again,
That no matter what you’ll always be there
Every time I doubt you for this love you give
Will you ever forgive for this pain?


Can I tell you I need to make love to you?
Cause to show you how I feel
For sometimes words are hard to find
And this touch is the only thing that is real

Just Let Me be (Part II)...

I know I have the powers
Cause you are what I place inside
But this hurt of life is just too much
It's only your heart where I can hide

I wait for the day when we’ll meet again
And this time it will be better than before
For this time I know the path to heaven
And I know you would want me more and more

How different we are, but as one we come
Together completing each other
I try to be your father figure and
You cuddle me like a mother

I want to take care of you all my life
Just to see you every time that you are fine
And away from you I’ll just be alone
Though I have with me what is mine

I have you as a life within
For which I’ll always be content
But this life is just to hard for me
And you’re the only one I can depend

Just Let Me be ...

Please believe me for everything I say
Cause it’s comes from the depths and cores of me
This is my only truth you see or feel
I want to know you like you do, please just let me be

This only truth I share with you
Will be the only thing I ever had
No matter how much hurt I am at time
But it was you, for this I will always be glad

The hurt that I have placed in me
Was from people who never really cared
And the love that you give means so much to me
Will be the only thing that I ever had

I walk alone restless as the shadows of the nights
And hoping you were there
Even if you don’t choose me to be
But you know I’ll always care


You know I’ll always love you
No matter where I’ll be
But I just want to be with you to love
Will you please just let me be?

Stranded ...

Thought of it as a game
Climbing peaks of loneliness
Breaking brittle sensations
Not knowing the consequences

What do I need to do,
where do I have to go?
when there’s no where left
No where left for me to go ?

Where do I rest my soul?
Where do I take this mind?
When she acts if she never really cares
And love is just so hard to find

Does she make me strong
or does she makes me weak?
Is she making me love her more?
Or is she leaving me somewhere deep?

Pieces of me ...

There is no place left
that I would find to rest
Will be running till the end
will this broken heart ever mend?

waiting for this soul to part away
When my eyes will turn to stone
Taking those last few breaths
Cannot stand this pain anymore


erasing my own existence
Why do I have to burn away
Bleeding wounds just won't heal
stabbed and wounded i'm left astray

I cannot blame the world for this
I cannot hold my head up high again
even if I break into a million pieces
Every piece of me will cry out your Name.

Lost in a moment ...

I am lost in a moment
I think it's getting the best of me
What is she searching for?
someone better than me ?

she thinks of me as someone else
When there could be no one else
That she can ever trust,
With her hopes with her every hurt

I don’t know what will become of me
I don’t where it’s going to end
I don’t even know how hard I will fall
Will this broken heart ever mend?

I Love you as much as I Hate You ...



You were like a loathing drug to me
Intoxicating, maybe more like a disease
Now when it’s over and I think of you
You seem to me like a body deceased

I couldn’t understand what was then
As I was fallen for you, I was too weak
Now I know that it was all just a fukin lie
A nightmare that I once thought was a dream

I now know how you felt back then
When you said that you truly loved me
But It was all just my foolish mind I know
That you thought would set you free

My love never meant anything to you
And you faked when you said “That you do”
It just grows; I still love you more each day
But it’s not something to be shared anymore with you

I hate you as much as I love you today
And it just kills me everyday to think of you
I don’t seem to stand up again on my own two feet
No mater where ever I go or whatever I do

I love you so much that I want to burn you alive
To bring you back to life and then again kill you
To drain you out from all your sadistic pride
But I can’t seem to do it, for till this day I pray for you …

“For till this very moment, I just so Love You”

We'll Make it through ...

In the hours of darkness
when life seems to pass away
in the time of my need
when the light seem to fade away

It's then I realize where i am
I am above the ground
tumbling through space
and then you hold me still
So I could realize that I still exist

Have no memories of what happened
or what is going to take place
Just that I know what ever it maybe
we would stand together and
We'll Make it through one day

This Reality ...

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I am alone surrounded by the moving shadows
With fear I see the night, I feel the dark
Walking alone I try not to notice the eyelids
I try to ignore the eyes that gaze at me from the shadows

I try to hide myself within the ruins of my dreams
I hear the cries, I feel the flow of my tears
And I listen to the voices and I realize the sound
The winds of the night, they sing a sad song

I tried time to time to escape from myself
But I couldn't hide myself from this disgrace
I was trapped, and I was chained, I was wounded
No one heard me cry when I broke down and wept

The night as it mourned, the silent cries of my soul
No one could hear me scream as it made its way
Like a dagger, tearing my body and piercing my heart
But even when I thought I had it all that I would want
They never gave me a hope to be alive

There is no regret, because there is no way back
No way that I can go, there is no hope left for me now
Because the nightmare is over now, it’s my reality
I have accepted this consciousness as it grows

But I forgive the chosen one who made this life a living hell
because I know that they were not the light that I searched
They were in the darkness, the darkness that I was in.
They were just a part of this foolish game, just as me

The Nightmares that you run away from
It’s the dreams that I see every night
The reality that I live …

A different Perspective ...

She drives away
She’s feeling worthless
Used again but nothing’s different
She stayed the night
But knows he doesn’t care
Home by three
Deafening quiet
The porch light’s off
Yes they forgot it
She’d cry herself to sleep
But she don’t dare
Then she wants someone to see her
She wants to hear she’s beautiful


She drives away
And she is lost in the way
In the corridor of darkness
Where light seems to be merely a futile glow.

She’s feeling worthless
But she knows that what she has kept inside her all this time.
The powers that could be life to a lifeless and
The North Star guiding one out of the miseries of life
This life of betrayal and self deceit

Used again but nothing’s different
Can never be any different
for what she waits for is not within this physicality
The touch of blessing is no-where to be seen.
The touch that can be the difference.
The only difference there can ever be.

She stayed the night
And wished upon a falling star which is soon going to fade away in the dark skies
Again living this useless hope of life and feeling of content
But she still is hanging by a wish.

But knows he doesn’t care
Maybe because he was never meant to be.
To be the one to be close to someone so extraordinary
A mind, a soul, an existence that one would lose anything to win
But he doesn’t care
Maybe because he doesn’t knows

Home by three
And with every passing moment
The walls just seem to be closing in on her.
The clock is still ticking,
But a few minutes would seem like a lifetime to her

Deafening quiet
No one to hear her cries,
As these cries were too low
The Silent Cries

The porch light’s off
Yes they forgot it
And the light within her seems to be fading with time,
And no one that can be a blush of light.

She’d cry herself to sleep
But she doesn’t weep anymore,
As she wants the fight to be inside of her,
For times to come to face this world of distrust again
But still she wants to cry her soul out of her body

But she don’t dare
Because now she is too strong, yet she is too week from within,
Breaking her into pieces with every hurt and pain

Then she wants someone to see her
But that someone was always searching for her,
Not because to be the one to see her cry.
But to be the one to wipe of the tears of yester years.

She wants to hear she’s beautiful
And she is beautiful, as the soul inside speaks for her
You can now see the scar of her soul
Which she has placed under her bleeding skin
But graze all the scars and healing all the wounds.
There is she is the most beautiful one

Is she beautiful? She wonders …
With or without the wounds and the scars
You are beautiful, and that’s who you are
No expectations and no thing to look forward to
Just a gracious concern
From someone who is just like you
And want to be with you …

Letter of Destruction ...

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To All The livings ...


I don't wanna go through this anymore
I don't wanna live with the world
In this misery called life
I had enough of these foolish games ...

All this meaningless rhetoric
All the people that i once knew
They all seem to be just a part
Just another misleading direction...

To the hell that I am in now
The ones responsible for my fall
Are the ones I loved and put my trust
The reason of this broken me...

Now I walk again
Towards a new an empty dawn
A Dawn of destruction
That will never change anything
So I refuse to surrender
In this battle that is being fought
This never ending battle of life...


Now I only trust my arillery
The only thing that I can lay my trust on...

To all the world
You shall Pay for your mistakes
for this is the last mistake
That you made
that you'll ever make ...

Never Known ...

Always Standing,
On the crossroads of our beliefs

I’ll always,
Live in this dead world of your empty words

Don’t overlook me,
In the darkness, in your shadow is where I lurk

I only wish,
to live a moment that I will always wait to see again

Every time I let go,
Just hoping, that I might see beyond the night and day


Just that if you would know
I wish you would never know …

In the Shadows ...

Well I am not content
To keep this love in shadows
Hiding from the world as it's a sin
This agitation, with every heartbeat grows

I treasured you and I’ll always do
But this game of hide and seek, I cannot play anymore
I love a soul, someone who just not exists in words and thoughts
I am trapped within these ever dying emotions, why don’t you open the door.


Not in fake images or deceit and fading silhouette
I don’t even know if my battle is with myself or you
I know it's hard for you and maybe not even possible
To change you according to the love I have for you

But still I am trying to search for something
That I see in your eyes, or I wish I would see
A love so strong, that the world wouldn't matter
where it's just us and no one else, where we are free …

I Am …

"I am just a moment in time
waiting for my time to pass away
A shadow fading into the darkness
Darkness of the dead Inside of me

A curse for the life you live
As dead as the skies above
As the burning hell below
For you I am the Psycho love

I am the love that you seek
And the hate that you breed
I am the spectrum of your life
ANd also your faithful creed

I am the answer to your prayers
The flow of your unshed tears
the voice of your silent screams
And the pillow for your fears

A dream for the blinded eyes
The empty words of a dying mind
Desease for your useless hopes
And the vision to the blind

I am nothing that could mean
anything to anyone anymore" …

Let it Rain …

I looked towards the sky
As I waited for the answers
It’s been long since I asked
Questions from the one above
I screamed at the dead skies
I tried to talk with the clouds
But they spilled out the rain

As I feel the rain drops falling on my face
I was sure that there was nothing they could say
No answer that could ever be for these questions
To the all the times that I have been trying to live
As am drenched with the divine stream of emotions
Which once tasted like acid wine on my wounds

Let it rain
To wash away my sins
Let it rain
For this new day begins
Let it rain
To purify my wounded soul
Let it rain
For I cannot take it anymore

I stand below as the skies open it self
To cry on my fading existence in pain
This heartache, no one feels the hurt
As I try so hard to walk once again

Let it rain down on me forever
To hide this hurt, to hide this pain
No one can even see your tears
When you are crying in the rain

Let it rain
For me to quench my thirst
Let it rain
I have been through the worst
Let it rain
For I cannot bare this pain
Let it rain
I cannot fight anymore, just let it rain ...

Love Undone …

Now that you are not here
I sit here numb fighting this loneliness
A thought that grows
The time you said goodbye and left

A hope that maybe someday you’ll be back
To gather these pieces of my broken heart
To hold me once again and wipe my tears
But all alone this emptiness tears me apart

I can hear this silence
Screaming through my ears
I can se this darkness
Lightning all my fears

For this emptiness is growing
In my crowded mind Insane
No one hear these silent screams
As I Lay awake in this pain

For the dreams that once we held so close
Seem so untrue so fake
Our beautiful dreams of love all broken
Are now the nightmares of my awake.

All that is left are some pieces
Pieces of this broken me
All I search for Is you
But there’s nothing that I can see

I walk the same place that we once did
Trying to bring back to life a frozen memory
I scream and burst into tears as I wish
That you were here once again to hold me

I will never be the same again
Nothing that I’ll ever be …

Sinful Obscurity ...

I have engraved your depiction
Deep within this darkness of me
I see the flames of grief devouring
Whatever is left of my fading destiny

My Existence burns in Eternal flames
As a begotten oblivion I own
I have flown away a million miles
Let me open the realm to search you

My mind Fluctuates in this labyrinth
Of fragile emptiness called life
As I try to fly for the purest sky
Where to yield is to divine

Tears and blood of this rotten soul
Silence in my unknown Universe
Damnation sings me a final song
All is lost as this fate is altered

The growing essence of solitude
This truth is a chain to my mind
Trying to hide in the centuries of doom
The dark horizons, Sinful obscurity ...

A little more of "My Psyche"

I still don't know how much I am left with
For the more I give to you I feel drained
But what is there that is left of me now?
What have I lost and what have I gained?

I question myself each day that I live
Through the storms I try to reach the shore
Just waiting for some left over feelings
You give what you can, but I still want more

I guess I am becoming too selfish in this game
That you and me have been playing together
I don't know what the rules you choose are
You know it all, and I am a week performer

You say that I am changed as we now speak
You say that I don't think as I used to before
I cannot contemplate what is about to come
But you know I am there forever and more

But how or where I'll be, that I cannot say
For it's hard to chain these emotions I feel
I fight a war with self every day that I live
It's hard to contain what grows inside of me

But is it really worth the fight for freedom?
I still am hear and this dead heart still beats
But I guess I am no longer the same anymore
The man I thought I was, or the man I used to be

My Psyche ...

I see it in your eyes every time you look at me
What you don't realize, try to hide away from me
I see the light but you always cover it with a blink
But your eyes tell me all, they just somehow reveal

It's always been hard for me to wait
With patience and a little twist of fate
It's like standing on a burning ground
I want to run, but I cannot leave this place

You would think I am crazy to think like this
For living with a hope, ruins seems to me as bliss
How can I leave this home which with love I built?
For if I abandon you now, will leave me with guilt

I cannot be here with this way I feel
I cannot runaway, as to me this is so real
I cannot find a place where I should lay
I just stand here for you, giving my all away

Free to Dream ...

If i was free
then i wouldn't be what I am
I am as chained as the thoughts i breed within this mind
I know my freedom
maybe it is always the way I have seen it
and maybe there is no other way to look at it
can you differentiate between illusions and reality
maybe the reality we know is the illusion for our eyes
and the illusions that we think do not exist in reality
is the only reality
it's just to look at things from a different angle
and think through a different perspective
and the dreams so fake
but i guess the dreams are the things i have failed to do
maybe the dreams that you see is the only reality
and the reality that you live is a dream
a nightmare to be precise
for some dream is an escapade from this reality
and for some this reality is the dream they once had
and for the forgotten ones,
the nightmare you see, is the reality they live
dreams are something that i believe
are the only things that you can call your own
the way you want things to be
the perfect reality can only exist in a dream i guess
Although everyone has a different perspective
but for me I think dreams are better
than this reality that I live in
better the dreams of my unconsciousness
than the nightmares of this awake
maybe it is the only way one should think
or should i say someone has to keep a watch
on what goes beyond the light
and what breeds within the darkness
the darkness of a mind
Empty Words of a Dying Mind ...

Darkness Reborn ...

Fearful bleeding dead eyes
All I see another decaying mind
This time it's no one else but me
This soul has pounded into misery
The last vision of this decaying body
The look of terror in the eyes of destiny

The decaying smell of rotten flesh
Tears through a knife in the head
Peeling the skin from the bones
Away from life, joining with the dead

No funeral for the one forgotten
Life a smelling corpse that you fear
This curse that you lived once before
It the same again as the smoke is cleared

Reborn disgrace under a mislaid regime
Trapped once again in this filthy life
Baptized this time in the unholy blood
Restless Soul within begs for mercy tonight

For all the dead they laugh at you
From the end you start all over again
Death is not a way out from this life
A thousand times you will relive this pain

Childish dreams ...

A weeping child
A broken toy
Left in confusion
That kills his Joy

Picks up the pieces
Of what is left now
Tries to walk home
But lost he is now

Thinks of a way
Carry his only friend
Searches for something
To mend his Toy

As he looks around
See the world so bright
But as he realizes
For him it's the darkest night

What should he do
Where should he now be
He has lost his way
There no way left to go

He looks towards the sky
As he walks all alone
He gathers all his strength
But his faith is all now gone

He walks once again
But the road to home isn't the same
accepts the reality of life
And throws his toy away

For once he was so happy
When he didn't have a thought
Of what lays beyond his dreams
of what he is now left without ...

My Sun is now Blind ...

No arms to hold me in the dark
No voice of reason to ease the pain
All the ones that I held close once
As I stand again now,nothing remains

I have walked away a million miles
trying to such for a place to rest
As I broke down and I wept alone
Life to me seems as a fallen crest

Wandering lost through the mist
The tress that concealed the light
Stepping on the leaves and fallen snow
Darkness is your picture in my sight

I deny my frown, the flames of love
And wait for the midnight Sky to glow
Ahead lies my grief, happiness behind
Where the shadows of darkness grow

Find my way out of the wilderness
I can hear cries mounted on the winds
Through the grove I see a distant land
Far away I hear some nightingales sing

I see myself stand at the edge of doom
I see the valley of my broken dreams
I once was here when my heart was alive
I stand confused,but so obvious it seems

I look at the lonesome star lost in the sky
The Emptiness of the dawn welcomes my fade
I ask myself if I ever wanted to see the sun
But I lost the dream that yearn for a sunny day

Down and down I fall in the the river of blue
Flood drowning my hopes, storm deafening my mind
The Ice of Bitter reality pierces through my soul
Happy rays have fled and the sun is now blind

My Sun is now Blind ...

What we are ...

It's when you are lost somewhere deep in your mind
You are stranded on the road of no life, no belief ...
It's then you search for a way out, but you don't find
You don't find a way out of this road of no life, of self deceit

It's then you realize what you are and what you've been
It's then you realize how things were or would have been

When you open your eyes to the world inside of you
Where there nothing that you could ever win or loose
Some corner where all times to come grow tall
In a place where Dreams fade and shadows fall

But then you are helpless to change your thoughts, to hide the scar
Only then you feel, never meant to be what you were, and what you are ...

Love's Gotto Go ...

This Sweet drink of Immortality
At first tasted sweeter than honey
Oh come one where is the love now
Guess it was a lie I lived somehow

This Love's gotto go
Have to just let it go
Love's not there anymore
Oh baby this love's gotto go

Oh I remember the walk through the park
You were faking, knew you lost that spark
The look that stopped the world to behold
Your beauty is now gone, so pale so cold

This Love's gotto go
Have to just let it go
Love's not there anymore
Oh baby this love's gotto go

Oh I remember how it got me in
Felt divine this covetousness sin
Been lost for so many nights/day
But now this love has to go away

This Love's gotto go
Have to just let it go
Love's not there anymore
Oh baby this love's gotto go

Fuck You Too ...

I don't wanna think anymore
I wish I could just shut my mind
and feel numb
just stare the sky above
dead
physically and mentally
not to say anything
not to want anything
not to need anything
no wishes
no hopes
no dreams
No love
No Hate
No destiny
No Fate
No bliss
no fear
No rage
no freedom
no cage
I just want to run away from myself
fuck !!!
fuck !!!
fuck !!!
Fuck everything and anything that is there or has ever been
Fuck this life and everything in it ...

And YES Fuck YOU TOO!!!

Everything To Give ...

Don't expect my heart to soar to you
This already is bestowed to thee
Love awaits in this graveyard within
Awaits the awakening that cannot be

As worthless as to be kept in thy self
Though in ye love I fervently burn
Lost without a glow of hope In this mist
Walking straight lost, no where to turn

Though in torment here, for you I stay
This tribute that my heart doth pay
Yet one more wish shall perish away
My commitment to live just bears sway

But I know there is a moment that waits
To the ends of this world I wish to aspire
Our souls with divine love so unfeigned
Salves all fear and with virtue it inspires

For I burn, yet burning for ye is my fate
And for the touch of blessing that I live
May the burden of hopes I still carry on
Everything you take away, is all I have to give

Torture for this Soul …

Trying to run from the monster that I have created
A creature, Bounded with this disgust and disgrace
Cannot Escape, there is no escape from my ownself
No mask of self deceit to hide my decaying face

Why do I suffer this meaningless rhetoric everyday?
What is there that I now still wait for to come ?
For there is nothing more left of me now to take
Lost and broken, A lost vision I have become

This disease has grown too much to end now
I am rotting away, too young to feel this old
Murder of my youth, Too sick to even die
Cannot bare anymore, this infection of a soul

My dreams and wishes are the reason of my demise
My world is now a garden of dust and this dismay
I am the torture for the bliss that i once held so close
I am just a moment in time waiting to pass away

A Distance there is ...

A hole left in my heart,believing the truth
It was just a mirage, There never was a start

Peeling of the skin, the wounded scars
falling all around me,around me and within

Waiting for your words, for what is to come
redemption from this life, all my sins undone

Distance are the voices, close is the silence
Your hand's waving a good bye, from a distance

Deep is the loneliness, Silent are the cries
In dark eyelids closing, my bleeding eyes

Broken Grace …

Come to me in the dark
Come walk with me tonight
Walking somewhere far away
from our ever changing lives

Come into this night
for the days will be lost away
lay of this burden of hope
For you i return to you in dismay

Reflection in the broken mirror
fearful eyes of a broken grace
marks visible around the neck
your beautifuly distorted face

Lurking shadows in the corridors
silence beackons, before breaking chains
loosing the sight, images of the unseen
fulfilled wishes,blue inside the viens

Break me into pieces...

"Drifting through the shades of your belief
Never knowing where It might cease
Just floating in images of your facade
No fears no uncertainty to keep me unswerving

A color of your blue turns me grey
Finding paths in endless circle of dismay
Moving on, but never knowing
Just awaiting this Road to take me away

I need your glow to steer me through
Through these darkened corridors
Where I am stranded in the twist of distress
Agitated by the belief of my psyche

Not having the control of building judgment
Lacking the mind of perceptive uncertainty
Would you confide your views on my depiction?
To enlighten me wherever I have been

Break me into pieces, take every bit of me
For in your palms, is my place to be …..."

Coming to an End …

I let my mind to be free from the thoughts
Because my last hope is far away from me
Now I have become the prisoner of my past
A lost path I walk with my broken dreams

There was a time when I have held the stars
When I had touched the moon with my heart
Now the pieces are scattered of this broken me
Some of them are forming, some falling apart

I walk towards the sea with all my feelings
Thinking why I have always been alone
But in the darkness I supplicate for the light
Wiping off my tears, forgetting what is gone

But I tend to fall as each moment passes by
These waves in the sea, they bring me sorrow
The time is here now, that I waited for so long
For me to come to an end, no hope for tomorrow

The water baptizes me, as I start this journey
To walk the path that maybe will set me free?
With every step it swathes me with such passion
After this night is over, will they even think of me?

Still be…

I still breath, my heart still beats
But it’s not the same here anymore
I have no dreams that I would live,
Cause I have loved you with my heart, soul and much more...

I wish and pray to God for a day,
For a day when I could hold you again
For I am living away lifeless in his world
I’d wish for you to kiss and touch me, and take away this pain...

I’ll always be in your morning
I’ll be there in your darkest night
you may not see or feel me any longer
but as the night gets dark and cold, I’ll always be your shining light...

And till today I hold you there
where no one else could, would ever be
I will live all my life away from you
but this love for you in the hearts of my heart will always be...

Never thought I'd be a part of your game
All the miseries, hurt , pain tears and Shame
I loved you more, so I'll take all the blame
But even after what you did to me, do you even remember my name?


You will live your life forever
without knowing or thinking about me
but if you are stranded alone, in loneliness
Search me deep within your heart and soul, that’s where I’ll always be...

I know I'll never be …

I know this means nothing to you anymore
I know you don't belong here with me
I know there is nothing left inside us
I know close is what we'll pretend to be

I know I will never reach you there
I know you and I will part ways soon
I know we will just just pretend now
I know you will be like a distant moon

To hold you in my palms will be a wish
To watch you from away is now my destiny
But i will always pass by you every time
Like a fallen star is what my life will be

God tell me why did you create this world?
All these difference of religions and beliefs
Why isn't there a hope of love here anymore?
Just distant dreams and painful memories

I know I will never get the answers
I know I will live and die each day
I know you will leave me in my world
Just as every dream that walked away

I know I will never be
I know I will never see
I know this is what is real
I know, I will never be free...

Forever and always and for more …

When we're together
Time just stands still
everything just comes to a halt
when we're apart
It takes a river of tears
And a mountain of fears
to rejoin
So don't leave
Stay here by my side
Forever and always and for more.


Watch as the leaves get brown
As the trees get old and die
As the neighbors grow up and move out
For everyone you know will go away
But search inside my love will always be
Forever and always and for more.

Listen as the wind blows through the trees
as our hearts beat together as one
as the wind whispers in your ear
As I say those three words so often said
But this is much more than love I have for you
Something that I can never explain or you'll know
It's a feeling that I fail to contemplate
But right now I'll just say "I Love You"
Forever and always and for more.


You can deny, find a million reasons
you can make yourself believe
In the lies of someone else
But when you need the love that you seek.
Just search within the core of your soul
and there it will be preserved
Forever and always and for more…

Lost Myself within My Mind ...

Yet another night to pass away
Emptiness surrounds me still today
Since the time you walked away
Lying on my bed helpless, in dismay

I've been driving on the same road
Where you and I together walked
Recalling all those broken dreams
Thinking of all the love we talked

Do you know how hard it is for me?
Do you see the love dying in my eyes?
Do you feel this, what I grow inside me?
Do you hear my heart's silent cries?

For no more can I take now
I am leaving your world behind
I have lost myself somewhere
Lost myself within my mind

I see the moon up high on the sky above
But the darkness seems to grow
I have tried everything to stop myself
But these feelings never go

It has been raining for a long time
All I seek now is a shelter from the cold
I am walking down this highway
Just emptiness and nothing for me to hold

Do you know how hard it is for me?
Do you see the love dying in my eyes?
Do you feel this, what I grow inside me?
Do you hear my heart's silent cries?

For no more can I take now
I am leaving your world behind
I have lost myself somewhere
Lost myself within my mind

Set me Free …

Read the lines
Empty words of this mind
Know that I am just tired of standing alone

Waiting helplessly
For some left over feelings
That you leave behind for me to feed upon

Do you think?
That you can make me see
The world that you think will be just yours

Left in dismay
Tired of waiting outside
Why won’t you hear me and open the doors?


Walking around in circles
Trying to break through
The barriers of your mind
I wish you also knew

That you have not been the only one
To walk this dark road of self deceit
I have been fighting for so long now
Now I just cannot accept this defeat

Let me in
Just let me in
For I have been waiting for you so long

Set me free
Just let me breathe
Now I think I just cannot take it anymore.

Would you still Love me?

Will you still possess this affection in your eyes?
If our lives change and when I am gone away
Or will you ever doubt this Love I have for you
Which has no end and grows more everyday

Will you be with someone and believe him for his lies
Or will you see the ruins setting in for me as the time flies

It’s true; I am scared to think of the day that we’d part
And thinking about that day, it just tears my heart

Yet knowing that there are things that might never be
The world of dreams that we created, we may not see

With what shall anyone raise your emotions?
For no one can love you like my deepest devotion

My Only question if I’m ever gone far away from you
Would you still love me the way i always loved you

Will you still be here thinking that I will return one day
Or would you leave this place in regret ion and dismay

And if you accept everything and be strong to choose
That the love we shared is not there, nothing for you to loose

Please tell me that you will still love me even when I’m far
For I know we will return to this place again, now where we are

For when we come together as one it's so graceful and divine
I love the way you look at me and in your eyes I see the shine

For our love outlasting the Moon and the shining star
And I promise you that we'll be here again, where we now are

That in the end it will be only me, it will be only you
And I will give you all that I am, will always love you

For if I cannot have you in my life as the One
I’d rather be in solitude and live forever alone …

Isn't there anything left inside us?

Let me give you an idea
Of how this life goes
This truth that it buries
And the lies that it shows

Write down your destiny
Something never written before
Everything that you never had
Everything and so much more

Why do you stand here waiting?
Come on, the season might pass by
There is nothing left for us here
Let's leave the regrets and away we fly

Is there anything
That you think you'll leave behind
Isn't there anything
That will be left for you to do
Is there anything
That you are feeling afraid to loose
Isn't there anything
That is left inside of me and you

Come on now and hold my hand
Leave the guilt of yesterday
Walk this valley of golden sand
There'll be no price to pay

We have all lived a mistake for long
It's everyone, not just you alone
Don't hide beneath the rubbles of lies
Take your place as we gather as one

Why do you stand here waiting?
Come on, the season might pass by
There is nothing left for us here
Let's leave the regrets and away we fly

Is there anything
That you think you'll leave behind
Isn't there anything
That will be left for you to do
Is there anything
That you are feeling afraid to loose
Isn't there anything
That is left inside of me and you?
Lost within my Mind …

Too Good For You ...

Are you going to stand alone?
Wait for a reason to think twice
Are you going to see what passed by you?
Or are you just going to let it all go

Are you thinking it is not true?
The way that I could get through to you
Do you think that it is a lie?
So you think is just another random cry

I want to run away
Far from the world that I live in
To walk pass the place you exist
To look at you and evil grin

Do you think it's what you know?
It's not the same as you have seen
The way you have lived
Or the way it has been

One more time I have fallen
Another day, another night talking
About the way I have felt and thought
Just a feeling of something that I am not

I want to run away
Far from the world that I live in
To walk pass the place you exist
To look at you and evil grin

I pack my bags and start the engine
To take the road that leads away from you
Look at me and think what I said
I think honey I am too good for you

I want to run away
Far from the world that I live in
To walk pass the place you exist
To look at you and evil grin

"The Night of Infinite Love”...

This is my share of Love that I feel for you
As we stand by together waiting
for so long to see each other
I see you standing in front of me.

"Can't wait no more"

Even in the dark your body Glows with desire,
the darkness around turns your body into a stranglehold
of sensual flow, of lust and love.
I trace the outline of your body;
your breaths easing my way up to you

" I love you baby"

My eyes can only stare through your eyes astounded luminescent white
I see deep through your eyes into your soul
My presence fastening your heart beat
my touches giving you a chill down your spine
and my grip around your waste,
you give me with all that you are

“Body and Soul”

Completely I own each and every fleeting emotion you undergo
and with each part of you just opening yourself to me.
As I hold you close, you melt into my body completely,
Now we are not two anymore.

“You and I are One”.


One Body and one soul we exist now my love
I lose my self in you, and you are lost inside me
You simply await. As the silence mounts
And your body is taken suddenly by an onslaught of fine tremors.
Your

“Desires so Strong”

You start breathing harder and thicker
so thick it becomes a smell, a distinctive taste.
The smell of sensuality and the taste of erotic bodily pleasure…
You stand there and I move slowly and move behind you,
The very being of estrogen and seduction,
a slinking specter in the arms
You await As I approach towards you
and there you are just waiting to be

“Seized by Me”.

You cannot see me, but you feel me coming closer and closer,
until you feel the warmth of my body as it touches your body.
As I wrap my arms around. you move backwards
pressing your body into me and then
I move forwards pressing myself into you.

"Can't get close Enough"

Then you turn around looking deep into my eyes
as I come closer towards you starring your beautiful lips
as you raise your head and close your eyes,
opening up your lips to be seized by mine.
There I place my lips on yours,
As I taste the juice that covers your lips.

“Sweet drink of Immortality”

Breathless, you run your fingers down my body
as I do the same and I grip you and pick you above
as you wrap your legs around my waist.
A moment of delicate sensation as you slowly venture my existence
with your eyes, lips, fingers and body...
Then holding you I turn around laying you down on my cradle.
As I move back to give all my love to you.

"Awaits just for You"

I feel the sweat of your skin
and now I come down
starting from your thighs
as I start kissing you from below
up to your neck. I taste you all I

“Smell your Skin”
And
“Taste your Body”


Now as I stare again into your dark and deep eyes
I see how much you wait for me to give you my love
I see it in your eyes.
I see it all my sweetheart.
As I move back and you get impatient.
You grab the sheets tight as you open your legs and reveal the

“Doorway to my heaven”

I lay myself down on you, As I start kissing your face
starting form your forehead down to your eyes
Kiss you on your cheeks so soft with such passion
and then gently stopping your mourns
by putting my lips onto yours
with pleasure you grab me and kiss me hard

"The Kisses of Love and Passion"


I move back as I get ready
I slowly and pleasurably touch you with my key
to open the doors of lust and love and unending pleasures
"The purest of love" with pain comes pleasure
You feel this pain of pleasure as you say.
Ahhh, I need you all My Love

“Inside of me”

It's such a perfect rhythm, you and me flow in
touching each other, like stirring each other’s soul
You mourn with a blissful voice
And there I am, completing us as I move back and forth.
Those gentle strokes that leads us towards the
World that awaits just for me and you

“The Realm of Pleasure”

As I get swift, and as we get impatient
waiting to feel the drenched love from each other.
It gets faster and faster now
The mourns grow and fill the room with
the voices that breaks this sweet silence
And surrounds the room with

“The sweet music of Love”...

This is heaven that I feel,
walking towards the entrance of the dream world,
that you and me together build,
for the future that we will live,
everyday and every night.
Just you and me and nothing between us.
Covering each other as the

"Mist upon the hill"

We are getting closer towards the feeling
that we have been waiting for all this time.
We are walking towards the Closed door
Together as we walk down the

“Valley of Sexual Fantasy”

Yeah My Love we are there
Now as we flow in this river of Sweet Emotions
we look into each others eyes while are there
Oh baby I feel that hot spill
As you and me together cum
As we enter that door, we are calm and relaxed
Inside the world of our love and feel

“Perpetual Tranquility”

Here I open it for you,
I am going in I feel it baby,
walk with me through this door,
Lets walk through My Love.
Oh Baby, this is what we do best
this love that we make

"Sweet and Tender"

As I lay myself on top of you
and you kiss me and I say.
Baby I love you.
Forever and always and for more ...

"I Love You"

Haunt My House of Pain ...

Haunt this house of pain that I have built
Come and let's together share this guilt
There is still a life after this moment gone
A moment of divinity, A moment all alone

All that I ever had was the gift that you tore apart
My Love now rests in the broken pieces of my heart

I am now stranded in the corners of my house of pain
My serenity now lays in my shattered mind insane

But there is still now a life that I see
It's Dead as the world inside of me
A prayer forgotten, A wish undone
But there is still a life after this one

Scattered Images of my past, I stand in between
The path I walk now is the valley of broken dreams

The only feeling I have within is now growing fears
I am drowning in the dark river of my flowing tears

But there is still now a life that I see
It's Dead as the world inside of me
A prayer forgotten, A wish undone
But there is still a life after this one

My eyes they now bleed the sorrows of my fading past
I still want to live once again until these breaths last

I still live with a hope locked in my house of pain
I still want to feel the forgotten serenity once again

Haunt this house of pain that I have built
Come and let's together share this guilt
There is still a life after this moment gone
A moment of divinity, A moment all alone …

I Still Do ...

I took a walk on the beach the past night
I thought of the all the wrongs and rights
I thought about the night when I held you
Remember what I said then? I still love you

Don't want another life
I don't want to forget you
Don't need any other love
I surrender myself to you

I feel this change within, a different look in my eyes
I see your beautiful face in the moon as it slowly dies
Still hold back the memories of our love so divine
Can't bring back the past, still want you to be mine

Don't need the world anymore
I am happy living this all alone
Don't need a fake reason to exist
I love you even though you are gone

With every tear that falls I call out your name
Hoping that somehow you would feel the same
I ask myself what did I do, where did I go wrong
You left without saying a goodbye, left me all alone

Don't want another life
I don't want to forget you
Don't need any other love
I surrender myself to you

I am a fool to live hoping that it will all change
But this is all I can call my own, I know it's strange
For the world they just laugh at me to wait for you
But all I loved you, there's nothing left for me to do

Haunted by your Memories ...

Do you still think about those times?
All those long lost summer nights
All the love that was between us
All those hard talks, all those fights

I remember that look in your eyes
Something that I will never see again
So I am staying here, don't wanna leave
Cause I cannot find a warmer breeze

Everything seems to be lost, another haze
Just like the house we dreamt off (is now with)
Shattered windows and broken door
I have failed, cannot live this anymore

I know I cannot stay here holding on
To something that is forever gone
I cannot hold on because it's hard for me
In a dream haunted by your memory

After this cold night of forgotten memories
I walk towards the dawn of another day
As I open my eyes towards the light
The shine of the morning just runs away

It's just a distant memory of you and me
Everything that once was a beautiful dream
I stand here with my back against the wall
For every step I take to live, I seem to fall

I know I cannot stay here holding on
To something that is forever gone
I cannot hold on cause it's hard for me
In a dream haunted by your memory

Forever and Never ...

I stopped by for a moment to see you
And close my eyes and I saw your face
I cannot tell you what you mean to me
For your smile, a never ending grace

If i knew that it was the last time
When you held me close to you that day
I would have never let you go my baby
For you still exist in me till today

You are a part of everything I am
Now that part of me is just hollow
You don't know how much I need you
I wish you knew, you'd never let go

You are too young too know how it is
To need someone so much that you'd cry
I remember the last time that i saw you
You made me feel like I could fly

But tonight I am lost and broken with you
I need you to hold me close to you heart
For if we unite the stars would shine on us
Or the sky would fall down if we're apart

I lay awake in the dark with this question
That why don't you feel it the way I do
I guess it's just a fairy tale of you and me
Together forever in this life cannot be true

Failure of My Existence ...

I heed a yearning that still mounts from the Tomb of being
A collapse of the prayers in anguish and pain is all I've known
The Shadows of precision descend upon my feeble eyes
Scrounging infection is what controls my thoughtless mind
I endeavor to craft a psyche out of this panorama of life
Or strive to cremate my mind to liberate this existence
But then I comprehend that it's not us who control this life
For we are only the mannequins in this realms of chaos
And this place is a graveyard of belief, thoughts and desires
Bliss and sovereignty is an illusion that we create to live
And I now deem there is no light at the end of the tunnel
From now on I relinquish the quest for false contentment
Accept the gloom from within and embrace my emptiness,
Profligacy of thy self. Into the formation of this fallen human race.
I acknowledge this nightmare of my awake that I now live
Moreover I heave all my blissful dreams of unconsciousness
For I no longer can perceive my wishful thoughts to die in myself
And therefore this existence of my being is a gloomed failure