"Dead Night of Dead Dreams" ...

Darkness is what accompanies me through this journey of this never ending night. Standing at the edge of the roof, I see this city as it burn in this darkness, burning in the sins committed during the day. A slow parade of November chill, cold enough to sway you towards the fire that waits to consume you …

“Rituals performed
In the silence of the mind
And the silent screams
That will have no sound
Into the emptiness
To confirm this isolation”

I stand here looking at the first spark of sun as it declares the demise of this dark and cold night, burning down the remains of the unknown reality of the vague parade that many will never see. So much that will never be the same again; So much has been lost during the night, this night of dead dreams …

“Cremation of
These slaughtered dreams
Insignificant thoughts
That dies on the way
And the hopes
Being butchered at birth”

All this war within myself and with the outside world, I bleed an endless river of pain, a substitution for the tears I have shed in the wait of vengeance. I still have a long way to go, it’s not time for me to part yet, though I have nothing to look for, I feel numb and lost in this perplexing enigma of life …

“I am thinking aloud
Believing in lies
Being told in uncertainty
A way to ventilate
These dying emotions
Giving yourself
Into a dark communion”

The quest has ended with the final blow, but there is nothing that I hold still, I have lost more than I had when it all started, but there is a feeling of contentment, that I finished what I started, able to see the end, is it really the end? Or is it the beginning the end, an era of strange suffering and pain …

“A destination nowhere
The only way left for me
The only way to survive is
To set your demons free
You are free to exist
Into the empty spaces”

I feel as if I am transformed into a vampire that avoids the day, seeking the darkness so that the light of the day can’t burn me, but it doesn’t matters anymore, as I am already dead, dead as the world inside of me, But I have to find a cover to hide my scars of the battles I have been through, For I am still alive …

“And solitude surrounds
Inside these walls”
To kill this loneliness
Into the empty space
The solitude surrounds
And the emptiness within
Embraces you”

At last this body is at rest, but the mind is still alive, a thousand thoughts in a second, enough to drive you crazy and to keep you awake for another life time, another life? I think I had my share of a lifetime, enough for me to turn my back on everyone who I ever held close, my loved ones all lost somewhere in this life …

“But I am safe here
Inside these walls that
Shelter my scarred body
Inside these walls
“I Am Free”
Free in a
“Dead night of dead dreams” …